As I drag my feet across that halls through the clutter that's spread on the floor.
Step by step with no feeling as I made it upstairs.
With a glaze on the doors ahead while picking out my hair.
After making it to my destination, the darkness upon the opening greets me with it's glare.
Back inside here like a reunion that took a few years.
Flicking on the lights and see how much I stuffed inside here.
Picking up items that took me back in time.
Where I was just a boy, not knowing what in the world I was doing.
Taking a seat in the chair. Letting the environment consume me.
I've found my safe haven. Relaxed and filled with glee.
Or is that fear. Doubt. The unknown.
Is this even me? I don't know anymore.
When I don't feel like nothing's work, I just retreat to this room.
Just sitting here. Alone. Letting the pain consume.
Sometimes I just want to make a short stay then it turns into weeks.
I guess that's what happens when you put a light upon the anger in me.
Haha. See this is how life works for some.
They live, let the anger build with no release until they become none.
Rage can be a killer. Literally.
Hence why I have this room so I can disconnect spiritually.
Beyond these walls lie my others emotions and thoughts.
In my confinement, this is where I scream and shout.
See anger is part of my original blueprint since I first Press Start.
After figuring out it's coding, we are a unit known to leave a few marks.
Now we can get out of line. It's an intense emotion all it's own.
Adding that with a mindset and it become a supernova full blown.
No one understands why. And they never will.
How can you control? Just run over that hill.
Go into your room and take a look inside.
Do you like what you see or will shrivel up and hide?
There's a dark side to everyone. We all have flaws.
Whether you like to hide it or show it off on the walls.
It's alright, it's ok.
Your rage can become your ally.
Wishing is not enough. You have to open the door.
Take a breath. Then go inside and settle the score.
Cheers!
