Motives On Tap 4

Wishing all a Happy Memorial Day. Don't forget those that payed the ultimate sacrifice of giving their lives for our freedoms. It's those brave men and women that paved the way for all of us. God Bless America.

Here's Today's Motive on Tap.

The brave die never, though they sleep in dust:

Their courage nerves a thousand living men.

-Minot J. Savage

Wow. What a Weekend.

"Sometimes a change of scenery is the best medicine. Especially if friends and good times are involved." -Kazie

My previous week involved a lot of mental beatings, physical workloads, and just a couple hard days at the office. Around 40 hours to be exact lol.

But I did what had to be done since I got bills to pay and needed the extra cash. Plus working at a job that I actually enjoy is an extra bonus in my view. Moving along, the weekend is here! I should call Friday my weekend since that's when it usually starts for me and others.

Friday was just a day spent around establishments near the Fan such as Chilis @ VCU, Roxy's, Mulligans, and Baja Bean. Fun times all around enjoying an adult beverage, chatting up with friends, enjoying some karaoke nonsense on the microphone, and some laughable memories that I won't forget.

Then comes Saturday. My gal and I decided to roll out Richmond for a day and relax in Essex with her brothers. For those that don't know what Essex is, imagine the country and a lot of sun; Yeah, I call it relaxation. Along with the relaxation part of that last sentence involves a few beers, a golf cart, and the great outdoors. I loved it.

I like having a good time but I also think that sometimes getting away from the city is great from time to time. As a guy that was raised from the projects, country, and city limits...I've seen quite a lot in different scenery. Everyone has their main spots in their location that they go for a laugh, a date, a good time, etc. But going outside your boundaries can be a great experience to just get away from the regular routines.

So spice things up and go outside. You won't be disappointed.

Incognito

"The key battleground in a person's life is usually within themselves." -Kazie


It can be difficult staying true to yourself in this world with all those judging eyes and words of slander and negativity. Sometimes it hits close to home...

For years, I have been judged and ridiculed.

Over-emotional. Silent. Abusive. Angry.

I thought that I was obsolete.

Not fit for this world of elites.

So I hid. In various forms of myself.

Trying to be found instead of being lost.

The tactics and false bravados worked…longer than expected.

Then I asked myself this question.

Why should I try to sound like yall?

I’m not a clone of someone else’s persona.

I was told that I’m not fit for society because of my differences.

Not one of the norm.

Lost.

When you’re a slave to the bizz.

No emotion, no cause, no passion.

Found.

Blessed with your issues and modifying.

Running towards a brand new fashion.

Lost.

Speaking words with no backbone.

Found.

Every word filled with bass, truth, and known.

Lost.

My emotions is a problem.

Locking those away from shedding some light.

Found.

Letting them sore with a Get Out of Jail card.

All of them. With no holds barred.

For years I let myself get judged. Thinking that was a living.

Now I realize that I was just a 2 star movie beginning.

I’m done being the guy afraid of snapping.

If it was meant to happen, then there is no relaxing.

I’m a misguided individual. There’s nothing wrong with that.

Looking for my calling on this rock before I fade to black.

I don’t want to be known as Mr. Right

I rather be the one that knows that I lived my life.

I hid away for far too long. Trying to be a “model citizen”

When all and all, I’m just a ruthless individual.

My anger, emotions, slang, and cold is part of me.

As for you...we shall soon see.

Happy! Happy!! Happy!!!

"If you want to be happy, be." -Leo Tolstoy

This is exactly what I am doing right now today.

Today was a rather enjoyable day of life for me. Nothing really special or extravagant such as having a party or going on a cruise or even stopping somewhere special for a quick bite. Nope...just a regular day on my part.

I can;t really explain my overwhelming happiness. I guess because it's mine personally. You ever have those days when you just go with the flow of the day and your just bursting with energy? Yeah...that would be what my day felt like. Of course, there were a few bumps in the road now and there but I overcame those and continued rolling on.

Happiness can come from anything and I believe people lost the touch of this statement. It can come from the hustle of your work routine, running on the treadmill to burn your satisfied calories limit, or even just walking down the street enjoying the rays of the sun. Happiness can come from anywhere!!!

I just wanted to express that in order to become happy, you have to BE HAPPY. What does this mean? It means what it says...BE. Pause. HAPPY! You have to go for your happiness and keep it in a headlock so it can stay longer at some periods of times when it just wants to leave you for a few days.

Run a marathon, listen to your iPod, play a video game to beat the high score, make a cake, drive around the city, play that guitar, draw a masterpiece, rap over a beat. Mainly...just do you.

Happiness is all around you. What will you do to make yourself happy?

Mental 7

"Money can be an evil son of a b#@!h sometimes." -Kazie

So for this entry, I was looking back at my old poetry writings and thought about publishing one that didn't really hit mainstream. So I looked in my Mental series.

The Mental series hit me really close since these writings are really personal and involve my emotions, events, thoughts, and other things at the time of writing them. I don't usually let the public look at these but I'll show number 7 off.

If your curious, I have 17 of these. And counting. Enjoy. :)

The rays of the sun,
Warming up of skin.
Making me forget
What kind of hell I’m in.

Well, hell maybe too harsh.
Kind of like struggle.
The road to paradise,
Is an everlasting hustle.

Money is my bloodline,
I need it to survive.
People come and go,
But that green is my lifeline.

That’s what the world is,
Who’s got the most green?
And if your number 1,
Then you shall reign supreme.

I fell for the education B.S.
Go to school and you will be fine
Seeing that I’m still undecided
“Fine” is not what I would define.

Struggling to keep up,
Feeling like I’m a loser.
But I always look up,
Since well I’m technically cooler.

I’m a guy with a job.
And I like it as a bonus.
Rather be working here
Than dealing with dweebs named Jonas.

The job works my psych,
I’ve become cold.
When you first enter your warm,
But as you go, it begins to mold.

Everything starts to change,
Your body, your feelings.
Working nights don’t help either
As you try to find healings.

But the suffering is worth it.
Why? Because of the green.
As you go through changes,
Money makes it worth it.

Your social life minimizes,
And it will hit you…no lie.
Especially when friends gives invites
And you sadly decline.

In order to experience joy,
You must feel pain.
I have since day one,
And now…it’s time to gain.

Airplanes Pt.3

"Now lets pretend like i ain't got a name before they ever call me B.O.B aka Bobby Ray. I’m talking back before the mixtapes, (yeah), before the videos and the deals and the fame. Before the ever once compared me to Andre, before i ever got on Myspace Before they ever noticed my face. So lets just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes."

-B.O.B. aka Bobby Ray

Felt creative and I saw a few airplanes in the sky...so here's Airplanes Pt. 3; The version not available in your music library. :)

Let’s pretend that my anger got the best of me,

Instead of being in a class I’d be in the street.

Runnin’, shootin’, and lootin’ while chasing the green

And probably dead in my coffin by 23.

Let’s pretend that I was like everyone else,

Blaming things on others besides myself.

Making up excuses on why I can’t dream

Since I think that my vision won’t reign supreme.

Let’s pretend that I wasn’t crazy,

And at age 17 I had a baby.

Dropped out of school becoming a stay-at-home dad

While looking at the vision of life that I will never have.

Let’s pretend I was newest version of PCP.

I go in, take you up, then you cease to be.

Then I got ya addicted and I control your life

Now you’re up every night looking for the light.

Let’s pretend the clock turned back to the day,

Where everything was made on cassette tapes.

And what if my parents abused me and I grew up alone,

While healing up my wounds wishing for a new home.

Looking towards the sky trying to figure things out

But I can’t do anything special except shout.

Then the world shattered and the skies fell down

As I rose from the rubbles and stole the king’s crown.

Let's pretend that I made a turn for worse,

Exposing my unique gift that turned to a curse.

Let's pretend that I don't believe in a change,

But I still make wishes out of airplanes.

Let’s pretend that you’re on the road to your dream,

It’s so close to your face that you see it gleam.

How hard will you work to make that dream come down,

And make that wish happen right now.

Frustration...Let it Out!!!

"I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy." -Anthony Robbins

So I've had a very busy day today...and felt very frustrated after all the major events took place.

What?!?! Kazie frustrated? NO WAY!!!
Hey it happens to everyone kids. I'm not a God, I have bad days as well.

Mine involved taking multiple exams back to back while balancing a way to study for a future one that I have in about 14 hours from now actually (7:34 pm= now). While also treating my wounded shoulders and arms which have been going off the deep end lately. Add to fact that my friends wanted to me to go out but I couldn't due to the fact I have to study kind of pissed me off. And to top it off, my college ID got stolen. Yeah, it's been one of those days where I just wanted to yell profanities at the next person I come in contact with.

Whew! Now I feel much better. Wait. What just happened?

Ladies and gentlemen I give you a way to release your frustration. Releasing what's on your chest that's making it suck and then you feel a little more relieved. Some people do this and don't even realize it; remember when you had a bad day and you told your friend about it? And suddenly you started feeling a tad bit better just by getting that stuff out of ya.

Now of course, some people (like me) like to keep things that REALLY piss you off locked in right next to your empty locker next to your brain for a period of time. Sometimes that works but the majority of the time it gets worse due to the fact of time traveling by and then your still thinking about it which leads you to get more pissed until you finally release it like a nuke hitting the surface and taking everything out in one swoop.

May I suggest trying one of these recommended ways to release your frustration:

• Video Games Are Your Friends: Grab a controller and pop in Modern Warfare 2. You get to release your anger by shooting people online or offline after having a bad day. I really think some people have this game just as a stress reliever. What better way to release bad energy than with an M4 carbine with fall camo as you go to town trying to unlock your own personal attack helicopter to reign supreme! Plus sports game like FIFA, Madden, NBA 2K11, Fight Night, UFC Unleashed and such are good as well...who doesn't like yelling at refs and players? Now Go play a video game!

• Jab, Cross, Hook, Uppercut!: Not a gamer? Then grab some gloves. Boxing is another great way to release havoc after a busy day. Plus your working out your body in the process. Sway! Jab! Lean! Right Hook! Combo! Counter! You gotta stick and move. Can't find a partner? Then just shadowbox. Basically act like your in a ring and just practice jabs and uppercuts and other combos. Who would have thought anger would lead to a leaner and more muscular you huh? Just don't hit me with your nasty right hook OK?

• Scream!: Plain and simple. Take in a breath and scream as loud as you can. Sure you might break a mirror or two but you will feel way better. Let's try: Breathe in, HOLD IT! (Wait for it....WAIT for it...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!) Much better.

Now these are just my top 3 suggestions. But there is a variety of things to release that bad mojo in your gut. Try multiple ways and see which way makes you feel more awesome. Or do multiple ones so that you just feel 120% the next day.

But frustration happens people. It's serious. We gotta get that out of there...life's to short to focus on crap that makes us turn sour.

AAAAHHHH!! Whoa...think that one scared my neighbors.

Motivation From The Master #1

"I'm in bad shape physically but mentally if I stay positive then that's all that matters."

Fancy title with a simple meaning.

Basically it's motivations from my life experiences in this (and future) entries on this blog with this title on it. All things, persons, events, and other things mentioned in these ARE REAL.

No joking, no bulls*@t, all facts. So let's get started with the 1st entry, shall we?!?!
Here we go.

So I was casually walking down a hospital (because I work at one) after doing a few tests and such that my management wanted me to get done since I was already on the clock. On my way back down to the Emergency Department, I came back to my area to show that I returned from testing.

The person was filling in for me was at my desk working and said she would be a few mins then would head back upstairs. So I decided to go to the bathroom to burn a few mins while emptying my gas tank in the process. After that episode (yes, I cleaned my hands), I went back to strolling the halls.

That is until I saw one of the patient's at this end of the hall. He was a male I would say that looks around early 30s maybe later. But he was badly banged up from head to toe in every sense of this commonly used phrase. Broken legs, mangled arms, hands look like they went through grinders, and his face maimed. The guy was in rough shape...I was mind blown.

And this is coming from a guy that has worked in the hospital for about 3+ years.

Yet even through whatever this man has been through, he saw me and said, "Hello, young man." in the most cheerful way. Not like that fake "Hello" with extra sass and full of false hope...but it was with feeling and cheerfulness. Of course, being curious and polite, answered back and talked to him for a little bit about random things. Then he said this, "I'm in bad shape physically but mentally if I stay positive then that's all that matters."

I would have gave this man a high-five after saying that but he was in too much pain. Plus my relief was probably thinking that the bathroom is occupied for the next hour or so.

But that quote is spot on. Physically, your body can suck, some parts aren't in working condition, or it could be out of commission all together. The physicality is just one part of the machine; it's what's inside the engine that keeps this thing moving. You can have the most bad-ass looking car with the greatest paint job in the world that every time you curve a corner...everybody watching jizzes their pants while they are looking for their mouths since they dropped them as you put your foot on the gas. However, if that car of awesomeness has an engine from 1967 that hiccups every 50 meters...might as well be driving a minivan down the street instead.

Don't focus everything on your physical buildup; You gotta give upgrades to your mental health to. Yes, no one is always happy. I know that firsthand and so should you since we all have bad days. But we get over those, move on, and become happy again. In order to survive, you gotta have the mental capacity to get over your current situation and or past ones that you think have a grudge on your existence. Get over that bridge, burn it down with flamethrower, and build a new one that will lead to a happier you.

It's not an overnight procedure either. It takes time, no quick fixes found here. For some it takes a little while, especially depending on the situations involved here. But the main point here is to focus on being happy mentally.

Yeah having muscles on your body physically is nice.
If you have a bad heart, they will soon turn back to mush.

Being mentally strong is the first step to finding your happy.

Never

"The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed." -Buddha

Never give up.
Never say "I Quit."
Never doubt yourself.
Never lose hope.
Never pretend.
Never say "I Can't."
Never throw in the towel.
Never go down for the count.
Never underachieve.
Never settle for less.
Never fear.
Never break.
Never choke.
Never crack.
Never say die.

But always achieve.

Raise The Bass, Heal Your Soul.

“Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.” -Unknown

You know that feeling you get when your driving around and all of a sudden your local radio station starts to play one of your favorite songs and then your crank up the bass and keep on driving even though you already past your stop about 10 mins ago?

Yeah...that's the power of music.

Music can heal almost any wounds that you have from your daily grind. Whether your style is poppy lyrics with a hit of 80's flair or heavy guitar riffs and a singer screaming bloody murder to even listening to rhythmic instrumentals, music can satisfy anybody.

If you feel down and just need a little splash of happiness, crank it up to 11 and being taken away to your musical sanctuary.

Your loving spirit will thank me later.

Show No Fear...Just Live.

"If you have stage fright, it never goes away. But then I wonder: is the key to that magical performance because of the fear?" -Stevie Nicks

Show No Fear...What's the worse that can happen?

OK. Before you think of 20+ reasons of what can happen to you in the next few minutes I want you to shove those negative thoughts straight up where the sun don't even think about shining and be positive while reading this little rant of mine.

People should not be afraid in this life because there is so much out here for you to indulge in to keep you happy and care-free. Friends, events, concerts, video games, guitar solos, even reading a book can keep your mind at easy without thinking that your world is gonna end every 30 seconds.

Of course we as human beings have to look toward our futures because we want everything to be absolutely perfect when we get to a certain age. We gotta get good grades cause that will give us that 7 figure job that will buy that brand new mansion made out of gold brick with platinum flooring and a badass laser security system to protect our wife that models for Victoria's Secret on occasion while taking care of our perfect kids.

Ladies and gents I hate to break it to you but this dream will happen to only 0.02% of the population on this Earth....sorry to shatter your dreams.

But as long as you make an effort and stop worrying about not always getting things right the first time, you will be fine. So what if your not book-smart enough to be a doctor? That doesn't mean that your life is sentenced to running through trash cans to get your next meal.

STOP STRESSING!!!

Keep the stress and fear at a minimal...as long as you don't be lazy and try to make good out of yourself and try to accomplish your goals then the fear should disintegrate like a package of C4. Set up some goals that you believe that you can accomplish and live the way YOU want to live life...don't let anyone tell you how to LIVE YOUR OWN DAMN LIFE!

The world is your playground, go play on the swingset next to the 600 foot waterslide and enjoy yourself!!!

Objectives Towards a Great 2Day!

“Success is going from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm.” - Winston Churchill

Hey people!!

It's a rainy day in the neighborhood here, but I still got a smile on my face. Here's a few tips for you on your quest to an awesome day and even more awesome you.

• Release Your Energy: In order to be happy, ya gotta have energy!!! Find something today that will keep you on your toes and focused while making you happy at the same time. Things like a trip to the gym, cooking in the kitchen, drawing, or YouTube random funny vids can be a boost to your happiness.

• Don't Overdo Your Workload: I can say firsthand that multitasking is great; but sometimes it is a bad thing trying to handle 40 important things at the same time. Take a breath and focus on doing one thing then heading towards the next so that just in case you screw something up you can easily fix it. Make a to-do list and go by it one by one...trust me, it will save a few headaches today.

• Make Room For Your Empty Stomach: Grr....what was that? It was your stomach. Don't skip lunch today cause your body will hate you for the rest of day. EAT!!! If you can't make enough time in your busy schedule for a lunch break, be sure to have a few drinks or snacks handy....and make sure you have a napkin if you pig out. I can see the honey mustard stain on your shirt from here.

• Reward Your Success: Now I don't mean buy yourself a new BMW z4 for pete's sake. (If you can afford that, can you give me one?) But for all your hard work today, treat yourself to something nice like a chocolate sundae or a trip to the massage parlor or even a beer with friends at the local pub at the end of a long day. Kick you feet up and just chill; You deserve it.

Follow these tips and you should be on your way to feeling great while accomplishing some of your goals. That's the blueprint...now get out there and do great things today!


Ready...BREAK!!!

Friendships=Medicine

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost." -Charles Caleb Colton

Let's face it...your gonna meet someone in this world.

No beating around the bush about it. There are over 10 gazillion people around this revolving rock and in this gigantic population you are bound to find some people that are interested in you and want to be your friend.

This is a great thing called "friendship". My definition of a friendship is two people enjoying each others company and having common interests or experiences with each other in a positive way. To dumb it down to simple terms, two people that have fun being around each other.

Now there are some "fake friendships" out here. These are the ones you gotta look out for because these involve scumbags that don't care about you as a person but care about something on you (money, cars, a job, etc). Don't associate with these cause you will just get heartbroken at the end if they find what they want from you and leave you on the side of the road like yesterday's trash on Route 5.

But for the "friendships" that last a lifetime these are great for the human spirit as a whole. It's almost like a prescription of medicine at your local pharmacist that refills whenever your around friends. Friends can make you forget about how crappy your day was and make it unforgettable and joyous at the end of the night.

And guess what? It can happen on multiple occasions!!! You can experience complete ecstasy of happiness again and again and again...and it's legal!

Friends are part of everyone. Even if you don't think you have friends or will even associate yourself with another human being...it's gonna happen and this is a good thing!!! Friends can keep you sane...at certain moments...and make your life more meaningful and joyous at the same time.

You don't really need to make an attempt to start a friendship, it's sort of natural in a sense, but for true friendships to last...some work has to be made towards that to have it last forever. And that's better than any pleasure from prescription of ibuprofen or banana bag can provide.

Well a banana bag can come quite handy...just kiddin'.
Make a friend today on Aisle 17! :P

Do You...Nobody Else.

"I’m doin’ me, I’m doin ME. I’m livin’ life right now, mayne and this what I’ma do ’til it’s over,‘til it’s over. But it’s far from over….." -Drake

In this society of ours, it's pretty easy for people to lose themselves to newest fads and trends. Just go outside and there is basically advertising for everything from the latest gadget that has a 7G network and 5 GPS's to the newest piece of silk that would go great with your new $75 pair of suede heels.

Most people think that things like these make them have eternal happiness but news flash...within the next 24 hours something new pops up and now you got "old" equipment that obsolete and no longer cool. STOP!

Instead of trying to keep up with the latest and greatest, which is impossible, do you.

Now how do you "do you"? Well here is a few pointers...

• Don't try to be like anyone else: It's okay to have idols but there is only one you. You gotta go out there and make a path for yourself in order to define what kind of person you want to be seen and remembered as. Hundreds of people will come and go in your life...make a good impression. Do you really want to be seen as a 400 pound slob that does nothing but make paper airplanes out of 2 year old newspapers in the middle of Central Park? Yeesh...nightmares just thinking about that.

• Find what makes you...YOU: Are you creative? Do you like having fun by making others laugh? Is making computer programs your passion? Questions like these and actions towards answering them can make you much more passionate about life in general when you have something that you love doing at all times. Finding a passion can keep your head above the rocky waters...especially on those days where you feel worthless.

• Surround yourselves with +'s: People will betray you...it is a fact. Some people just don't want see others succeed; Get those scumbags out of your routine ASAP! You need to be surrounded with a good aura of positive energy not some douchebags from your local slums.

• Have some alone time...not 24/7: Now I know that some people that like being alone, there is nothing wrong with that but this could cause future problems with a lack of a social life, not being involved in a relationship, or even conquering all your goals and not having someone to share them with. We all need some time to ourselves but you also need some time to just be around other people doing things like wildin' out at a karaoke bar, playing video games to see who's the best at what, a girl's night out to their favorite salon, or even just poppin' a few bottles with friends and just chill.

I want people not to just try to be a carbon copy of a Brad Pitt, Miley Cyrus, Bruce Willis, Hallie Berry, Denzel Washington, Will Smith; they already have been made.

In order to make yourself, you have to do you...nobody else.